昨天是STPM放榜的日子…今天的报纸少不了又有一些几家欢乐几家愁的报导和图片…回想起去年这个时候的我,应该在前往KLIA的路途中…

那时候印象特别深刻…因为考试成绩不甚理想, 拿了成绩回家哭得稀里哗啦的…别人的眼光我不在乎, 最重要的是我不晓得怎么面对自己…有人说,你的成绩也不错呀, 别气馁…对不起, 当一个人为成绩苦恼时, 请不要说这种话, 因为酱只会令人哭得更厉害…

我时常对人说, 中六的生活我过得很惨…撇开私人问题不说, 单是课业就搞到我一个头两个大…身处在所谓的精英班和一群经常K书的同学中, 你很难可以保持屈原那种 “众人皆醉我独醒” (又是屈原…呵呵)的态度…问题就在于你要K又K得不好, 考出来的成绩差强人意…过不了自己那关…

或许你会问, 既然酱你怎么可以进精英班??哈哈, 问得好, 因为我也不知走什么狗屎好运, SPM考到全科A就blur blur的进了去…其实, 你说我成绩好还倒不如说我会考试…因为我是为考试而读书的…结果进了中六就原形毕露咯…

好了, 又很幸运的让我拿到自己的选择进了大学, 成为名副其实的大学生…对我而言, 大学是一个让人懂得appreciate知识的地方…换句话说, 不会只为考试而读书…很遗憾, 进到大学, 情况似乎没多大的改变…一样是追求分数的竞逐场…顶多是高级点的罢了…每次考试总有人跑去问教授有没有tips…理由是不用读酱多嘛…对啦, 我也赞成…读酱多真的很辛苦, 尤其是好象TITAS 这种无聊的科目…说得自己很清高似的, 其实别人问到我也会鸡婆的拿一份回去研究, 可是到头来还是没看, 因为很没有安全感…没错, 我自认也沦落到变成考试机器的一份子了…如果这个学期末有人问我, 这个学期你到底学了什么?? 我未必可以回答你…

我国的教育制度出现弊端是很久以前的事了…可是no one is bothered to make a change…经常讨论大学生失业问题还不如检讨一下自身的教育制度, 我们也不愿经常被评头论足!!!

我想我就要病倒了。。喉咙开始感觉有些不舒服，整个人都觉得很累。。偏偏这个星期又会比较忙，得赶TITAS assignment…显呐。。

最近遇到一些事情让我产生很多疑问。。到底我们应该坚持自己的立场还是必须向现实低头？？支持前者的人会搬出很多理由来：做人应该要有原则，不能做个墙头草；认为自己对的就应该要坚持；不要理会别人的眼光和想法。。。等等。。

赞成后者的人就会说：原则不能当饭吃；原则在功利社会值几两？现实虽然残酷也不如你我所愿，可是毕竟这就是今天的社会今天的世界！！

曾经有一段时间很坚持自己的立场（虽然到今天有时还是），可是越来越觉得很多时候很多事情根本不如你所愿，到最后为了大局，为了不让人添麻烦不得不接受别人的安排。。

有想过如果我坚持自己的立场会是什么样的结果，结果发现这样做好像对谁都没有好处。。况且从另一个角度去看待整个事情或许它没有我想象中的糟糕。。。

告诉自己既然已经接受了就要好好用心去做，毕竟这样子的安排也是有一定的理由的。。。有时候要让自己好过一点就得“欺骗”自己一下。。现在才发现其实自己也是很容易妥协的人。。酱好不好？这个问题应该是见仁见智的吧。。

讲到原则。。有时候会觉得如果没有屈原那种“众人皆醉我独醒”的胸怀就难免会真的得向现实低头。。只是，对我而言，我既不愿随波逐流，亦没有这个能力逆水而上，唯有把自己抽离得远远的，不过问任何的事与物。。

朋友，你看到这篇文章或许又会说我的脑袋“太正常”了，没办法，这么多年的习惯了，一下子改变不来。。呵呵，你自己知道你是谁啦。。或许我该学习让自己不正常一点。。哈哈。。

看不懂？不要紧，当我讲废话算了。。懒得解释那么多。。呵呵。。

first of all i would like to warn you tat u’ll be reading han yu pin yin below…so plz be prepared to think abit when reading…:P

jin tian zao shang you KOK..ting dao yi ge hen ling ren sheng qi de xiao xi…wo men zu de PROJECT zhu xi ju ran chi zhi bu gan le!!!gen ju LECTURER de shuo fa shi zhe yang de…ta cheng shou bu liao zhe yang zhong da de ze ren suo yi suo xing lian zhe yi ke ye GUGUR diao le!!!zhe ge shi jie zen me hui you zhe zhong ren a??shuo bu gan jiu bu gan…na ge PROJECT zhan le zong fen de 40% ye!!wo men fen fen zhong hui yin wei zhe ge ben dan er bei dang diao!!!zhen de bu ming bai wei shen me hui you zhe yang bu fu ze ren de jia huo…yi zhong mi yang bai zhong ren a…

di er zhong ling wo tao yan de jiu shi zuo shi qing mei you jiao dai de jia huo…you shi hou dang ni ji xu yao de dao hui fu de shi hou pian pian zhe zhong jia huo jiu bu li bu cai de…yao bu ran jiu suo xing lian xun xi ye lan de hui fu ni…wo shuo zuo ren zui zhong yao jiu shi yao you jiao dai…zhe shi dai ren chu shi xu yao you de ji ben li mao a!!

di san zhong jiu shi men hu lu…zhe zhong ren de te dian jiu shi xi huan ba hen duo shi qing dou shou zai zi ji xin li ,jue dui bu hui xiang ren he ren shuo…ben lai zhe shi bie ren de xing ge wo ye bu hao shuo shen me…ke shi wen ti jiu zai yu ta bu shuo chu zi ji de yi jian kan fa hou you zai qing xu shang biao da ta de bu man huo bu xie de tai du…

wo bu xiao de qi ta ren zen me xiang,ke wo jiu shi bu ming bai zhe xie ren de nao dai gou zao shi zen me yang de…mo ming qi miao de ren…

ok…the end of the han yu pin yin part…

feel like riding an emotion roller-coster these few days since the last blog…but now everything is crystal clear to me…just came to realise that it’s finally over n no,i dun think i would ever give it a second thought…strange isn’t it??for the same thing but 2 persons involved in it have 2 different level of concern…one care nothing n one care too much…the one who cares too much is really stupid to tk things so seriously….y care much since nobody cares?might as well shut up n goes on…

abit blur on wat i was writing?it’s ok as i just wanna express my thoughts….dun really have to understand it anyway…:P 

again,this comp has no chinese input so gotta write my blog in english…haha…english is always my last option when it comes to writing as my eng level is really "half pail of water" only…:P

well..tonight will be sitting for my microbe paper…i think there’s something wrong wif me for not feeling nervous at all although not really well-prepared…mayb because it’s all objective ques..makes me feel dreaded to memorise all those bacteria nomenclatures…

somehow feel relaxed these few days as 2 lectures had been cancelled on the busiest day in a week–wed…because of this my mind get abit clearer since not saturated with all the labworks n lectures…

missing many people dearly these few days…my family,my friends….somehow feel lonely when being alone in my room all the while to study that troublesome microbiology…in order not to get drowned in lonesome i finally pick up my phone to call my mum…feel a lot better after talking to her…strange indeed that i only do this when i’ve entered  uni…it just didn’t come across my mind to chat with my mum when i was still staying at home…is this wat the sayings "u only appreciate when u lost it" means?i guess so…

mentioned tat there’s something bothering me in the last blog…well,guess i’ve sort things out…just learnt a painful lesson tat somehow there’s no turning point for something when u’ve missed it or u’ve chosen not to procceed…like wat the sayings go :let bygones be bygones…life goes on no matter wat…but then guess i just need time to digest the fact…

well,guess there’s all for this time..

gotta bek to books liao…:P